I wrote this passage more than three years ago!!! Unbelievable.
Today when I chanced upon it, it amazed me, as if it was someone else who wrote that. First of all coz I could not believe it to be so beautifully written, I don't consider myself a very expressive writer. And secondly coz I haven't been expressing much lately.
Keep it all inside is not a good thing, and even though I try not to bottle things up, a lot of it goes unsaid and undone - coz of reasons which will not be there forever, but are beyond my control right now.
When I read the aforementioned passage (to follow below) my first thought were maybe this is how my mom had felt when she read my first poem way back in school, actually it was more of a small verse really, that I wrote on a mother's day card I had hand painted.
When I read this passage, I couldn't believe that my little girl - me - had so many emotions in her, and that she could put it in words so wonderfully.
And that she has come a long way since.
Anyway, here's how it goes . . . . .
10/July/2005 12:15 PM
It is not great to live life alone, without someone to walk beside all the way. It feels like a walk in the mystery word, with sprinkles of moonlight and patches of lush growth that block out that moonlight.
People join at twists and turns, and then leave at next ones. Sometimes they share a walk in the moonlight, sometimes they help ease a scary patch.
Yet I live in uncertainty.
What will be next? Which turn? Who will I meet? Will I meet anybody at all? When will this by-walker, take a by-lane and disappear. And I wont even have the powers to stop them?
Not because they wont stop, but because that is not what my heart would urge me to do. Coz no matter who they are, they are not the one I seek to walk with the way through.
They are moonlight, they aren't the sunshine.
3 comments:
oh my God! i feel so connected to it right now...............
your post has compelled me to think abou living alone - without family and friends, without that someone you wake up to, or the child who you love and nurture .. dark
i fell like somebody peeped into my mind and wrote my toughts i have lived alone for over 10 years now!!
and all i have had is dreams!! but i have kept the hope and life has moved on..i guess in someways i have grown stronger in alot of ways weaker!!
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