The usual rant...

(Since it looks like the "rant season", I de chip in my own two bits)

First few months into a new job are not the most comfortable of places or times to be in........especially if the job is big shift from the previous role or work.

I ve had it all........in such a short time.

As it is a job change is a big challenge, need learn new things, unlearn a lot of old one (and unlearning is always much bigger a challenge than learning), set new expectation, set the right expectations, and live upto them, prove myself over and over again....and so many of the usual ones.

More than that, I ve come an entirley new work environment, light years away from the perovios one. The company culture, the ideology, the way work works - everything is so drastically different, so are the work hours.

It's like my world has turned upside down - oh yes, I knew what I am taking on wont be easy, and I don't want to get out either.......but between the time one is put into water, till the time one learns to swim like an expert is a frame of time (which can vary depending on may factors) which typically the most uncomfortable time at the job.

....and that is what is happenign to me.

What looks like to the world is not always the complete picture, and there are things I cannot explain to nyone at anytime.

Not every choice is a comfortable fit form day one - actaully none ever is. New shoes bite, so do new relationships, so do new jobs......

You don't throw it away at the first sore in the feet, you don't break up after the first fight, u don't quit after the first bad day.....u put in TIME, you put in EFFORT, and just because you want it more than reason enough to keep dong it.

That's what I call commitment, that what I call a loyalist.

It's tough, but then life isint expected to be easy - maybe just venting it all out here, makes me feel better about it......and gives me the mental makeup to keep swimming.......

I know I ll come out of the waters.....its just a turbulent tide now.