A WHOLE NEW WORLD

Just when u feel u ve seen it all, u know it all, u ve come a long way, ur a veteran, life puts u in a situation u know nothing abt.
In the beginning its kida odd, u really cant figure out whts goin on around u. slowly slowly u start to take notice.

The last time I felt so was when after being a senior at school, I had to start afresh as a first year student in college. Now u de laugh saying tht its obviously first year in college after ur last year in school, but the sudden and drastic change in scenario and circumstances where too much for me. And I felt kinda dazed. I realize tht physical surroundings do affect a person’s moods and thoughts after all. But still a substantial part of it is still mental phenomenon.

The only difference this time around is I know I am not here forever (or for a long time…nything above 6 months is a long time!!). so when I relocated to this place I had decided I de be very objective, cool and unaffected. But providence dosent want it tht way. This new place has brought about upheavals not only in my physical life but also in my emotional life. And guess wht I am loving these storms.

Of the many new things I ve decide to try and am trying rock is one. Never had ny taste for rock before. Yesterday I made my first conscious effort to listen to hard rock. My friend said Nirvana is not a good start for a first timer, but then tht was all I had then.
I loved the strings for sure. Guitars have always fascinated me. Cant say much abt lyrics and music though. They say rock grows on you. So I ll give it time. And in time I lll know whether am fertile enough for rock, or am too rocky for it to flourish.

Theres so much to do, and see, and feel. I ve never liked to be tied down, but I cld never be a free bird. Am still not. It ll take time. Bondage for too long becomes a habit. Freedom is viewed with cynicism. Its all in the mind, and all I need to do is free my mind. Only its not as easily done as said. But I am working upon it. And I have the courage.

And the faith.