IT BURNED … BEAUTIFULLY

I ll never forget the sight. Simply because I cant. I ve burnt them before. But then it was in a closed room, and I burnt one at a time, there was no air, no movng air, and each leaf burnt as is apologetic for burning.
But this time it was different. It was night…dark. There was wind…cool breeze at that height and even the candle could not keep still. First I burnt them one at a time. They blazed a while and then shimmered and then subsided. Suddenly the whole stack caught fire. It was a sight to behold. It was a shaded corner , so wind could not completely blow it out. It blazed fiercely, proudly, not apologetic this time rather as if screaming…look I am burning.
At a point I wanted to extend my hand and touch the sacred flame…I don’t know why I didn’t. It burnt near an iron post. It was glowing engulfed in the flames. I wanted to touch it too
I never knew that paper with ink on it burnt with a green glow…a pretty green glow. And how much I admired it. It felt like a sacred fire of “havan” only it was a funeral.
But not a kind where tears are shed.
There are others…but not as significant ones. I don’t care if they live or die or burn or rot. Coz they tell me things about myself I didn’t know. Things I de be proud of.
But these had to go, and exactly the way they did … coz they told me everything I had always feared about myself. Everything I ve never wanted to be and everything I unfortunately tried to be. The very things I hate and hated and will forever hate. (read pity for hate, and I don’t want to be pitied, least of all by myself).
It’s kind of strange … so nasty a thing could come to so beautiful an end. And give me such a wonderful feeling. I kind of feel avenged. Burning it with my hands before my eyes on my will. I feel stronger. And I know I am stronger. It seems I ve brunt the last shreds of weakness. A chain is only as strong as its weakest link. And “ aag mein tap kar hi sona kundan banta hai” .

Strange, sacred, solemen, calming, soothing, purifying, elevating……………the list is endless.