Sunday, January 12, 2003

LOVE ………… ONCE AGAIN

Just got back from Bangalore. Wonderful place, lots of fun and blah blah blah……
But the best part was – I learned to believe in love once gain. Not that I met someone, but I met an incredible couple. Two people who personified all I ever imagined about love and marriage. Not only had my belief in love been restrengthened but also in the fact that path of love is never easy. She struggled a lot…. I know coz I heard her side of the story. Maybe he too did, of course he ought to have, but I didn’t hear his side of story.
Oh am not scared of a fight, I never was….. but the faith that glory awaits the struggle is a driving force enough.
I cant stop thinking about them. They are too much on my mind. And not for once do I pity her for anything she went through. Whatever she did , she did it by choice. She chose to stay. She chose to bear. She chose to fight. And thts why she is a victor today. I respect her, I admire her, I look up to her.
There are people who think otherwise…… people too close to me. But for once I just cant reconcile with their ideas. Lol I never do!
I had a gut feeling that this trip is holding something wonderful for me, and it wasn’t till my way back home did I realize what it was. But now I am thankful. It gave me something I needed most – FAITH.
It gave me hope. It gave me a reason to go on. It told me not to lose heart. The path to any kind of success is paved with troubles. But fear of troubles shouldn’t stop me from going ahead. I just know I wasn’t meant to live and die like one of the millions on this planet. I am different. I am special. And so I have to chose……… even if the choice is hard, even if it’s the more difficult one, I have to stay put.
Today she is so happy with him, he is all goodness. I don’t say they never have differences (though I didn’t see any right now) but alrit, thts expected. But that can be managed. And it should be too… but what I am trying to say is love is above these petty things.
Life matters day to day, but then you have just one life. Either you chose to get up each morning and say to yourself “Alrit! Here I am. Another day to live through. Another battle to win.” Or you can chose to fight one big war and then wake up for the rest of ur live with the thought “Wow! It was all worth that.”
I very clearly know which path is the one I ll ever take. To my parents the other one would seem an easier one, but am a bit too headstrong to yield. They should know this, and if they don’t……. well time ll tell.
And speaking of marriage….. am not against arranged marriages. I just believe that there is one right person for me somewhere in this world. If I find him first it ll be called a love marriage ; and if my parents find him first it ll be called an arranged marriage. But I ll have to love him before I get committed to him for life. I can do anything but compromise on such an important decision in my life. Love first and everything else later on……..
Coz when you love, you are blessed. And when you are blessed, everything falls automatically into place.

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