Friday, April 21, 2006

I run things around here.

Somehow it's just not good enough if it does not ruffle you at some level emotionally. And nothing seems to get to that part of me these days. Not that I ve become pessimistic, just that I ve started to reason it out more and make peace with myself sooner and smarter. I believe I take a lot less nonsense from people now, which is am aweosome thing, coz I was sick and tired of being agony aunt.
Now, I only do things that I really want to and when I want to. It can be called an emotional maturity of some kind, or it can be called a hardening of skin. Either which ways it does not matter to me.

I have stopped trying. Now I only do it the way I want it, take it or leave it is what everybody else's call is.
There were a bunch a people, associations, situations that had the emotional preogative to unsettle me. Now I know better, coz if I am unsettled, I am very much aware of my role in it. What I am trying to say is, now if I am upset over a thing, it is because I let myself. That's a great advantage to be in, coz even in those low moments life is in control. I fret over people and events coz that is the place of importance I give them in my life. And I can take it away just as fast!
Feels great to know that I can bring the house down any day I want to.

Mind games is hard to beat me at now.

5 comments:

Hyde said...

Really? Perhaps I shouldn't tell you of the mind game am playing with you right now! :->

Animesh said...

Whoa!!! You're scaring me!

Deez said...

hyde no u shdnt. that ll spoil the fun :D

animesh didnt intend to. :p

Anonymous said...

bimaari ka asar? it seems to hv made u stronger n dangerous :p

Deez said...

amitken that which doesnt kill u makes u stronger...