TIMELESS

"-he relaxes like a cat – and cats don’t relax except with people they like."

That’s from “The Fountainhead”. I ve read it so many times. Probably not first page through last page (I read that way only the first time) but in bits and pieces, over nd over again. Actually, every six months or so I go back to reading it. And every time I discover something new, or just re-enjoy something I de loved the last time around.
When u love something, no matter how much time passes u don’t stop loving it. It beauty always evokes a response of love from u. it has such powers, and u have realized it and surrenders to those powers. And that’s y, u r never tired of loving it.
We recognize beauty and love so easily in no living objects, or abstracts, but seeing the same beauty or love in humans is rather difficult. I wonder why?
Maybe coz humans r a complex phenomena. And more than seeing the person as he is, we try to see him as we want to see him. And this is the only cause of heartaches. If only one cld learn to accept ppl as they r, it wld be so much easier to decide whether u love them or not. Things wld become so very objective, and decisions so very simple.
I don’t say nobody can do it. There sure r ppl who can see with an amazing clarity. But I have yet to learn the art. Sometimes I don’t know y I love a person, sometimes I don’t know y inspite of everything I still cant bring myself to love him/her.
I am human.
And that thing abt cat’s relaxing, is so true for me. I never really feel relaxed until with ppl I can really trust. I take time to open up, I take time to trust. But when I do so, there no doubt at the back of my mind. I trust so completely.
And probably that’s y it hurts so badly, but the pain wont make me trust less. It might increase the establishment time, but it cant affect my faith. A lesser faith wont be me.
Another one from the same book…

“ I’ve always thought that a feeling which changes never existed in the first place.”