ALL THINGS BIG & SMALL

Too many thoughts……..too many ideas…………I don’t know wht I am writing about !

I ll marry a successful man………someone who can earn more than I can spend. And…….i am quite a spender. Lol. I wld like to be one. And it wld only be my husbands money I might spend with ease….coz I know with my money I ll be as miser as ever !!! So that sets me thinking……will I make a good gold digger???

I feel a strange kind of loyalty towards Di. Whenever someone says something against her……..more often against her relationship or whtever she went through……I feel bad. I respect her for wht she did and for the choices she made, and I think shez very strong even though some ppl choose to say otherwise. And it really hurts me when others misinterpret the nobility of her actions. But then there’s nothing I can do to make them change their mind. As for myself I respect her, admire her, and look up to her………..and I ll keep doing so for the rest of my life. I believe in love, I believe in strength, I believe in endurance………and these r wht she stands for. I believe in her.

“ hila dula karo…..” 8 years into this house, and for last eight yrs I ve hearing this same thing day in and day out. Irritating. Again there is little I can do to change it. But enough to burn myself up!

CAT……..its MBA now. And I am happy. This is what I always wanted to do, and this is wht I ll do. I don’t have doubts abt being good enough to qualify Cat or doubt abt making it through to GD etc. I know I can….. I have it in me. My only apprehensions are abt the preparations…….the slogging there’s ahead of me. I can take it physically, if only my moral keeps high. And my moral may keep high too…….if these ppl don’t pull it down with there persistent pessimistic comments. I still have to learn to learn from critics…….. I am too sensitive to criticism…….chiefly the ones that are not true. I know I can achieve something in life…….but when u say “life mein kabhi luch nahin kar paoge” it stabs me too bad. If only u can keep quite on that front……I promise u I ll make it to the IIMs. But then that’s asking too much from u…………and I know u cant do it………..so……….. hah………I don’t have to worry abt IIMs !!!!!!
I ll try my best…….. I have started already……….rest God’s there to take care of.
“You have to let go of the life u want, so that u can have the life waiting for u.”

Alrit my last problem…………..I think tooooooooooooooooooo much.
Is there a solution to that ?